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Jaxon Loren is Here!!!!!

Jaxon Loren made his introduction into the world May 31 at 4:34 pm.  He was 7lbs 7oz and 20.5 inches long.  He is an absolute blessing from God and we can't image life without him.  Our hearts are overflowing with praise to God for a healthy boy and a wonderful and safe delivery.  It amazes me how my heart explodes with love the moment I meet my baby for the first time, and this was no exception.  He has a proud big sister who loves to hold him and sing to him and a big brother who makes sure we know when he is upset and tries to comfort him.  They both are excited he is here too!  I have an amazing husband who has made life simple and easy since his arrival and I have fallen in love all over again with the father of my children!!!  Life is GREAT!!!! 

Waiting

The last weeks of pregnancy seem the longest to me as I anticipate labor and meeting the little person who has been growing inside me.  This time is no different.  I am ready to hold this little boy in my arms and not in my belly.  I am ready to kiss his sweet head, watch him eat, watch him sleep.  I AM READY!!!!  Apparently he is not, but he still has two weeks of bake time left before his due date.  I guess I will keep waiting.

The pantry is stocked, the bags are packed, the Big Sis and Big Bro shirts are ready.  The house is clean, your car seat waiting, all we need is you little man.  We are excited and we can't wait!!!!

Flashback

I love how a sound, a taste, or a smell can instantly transport you somewhere else.  When I hear a certain Enya song I am in the Colorado Rockies, because I listened to it the first time I went skiing there.  When I smell the perfume Escape, I think of my friend Heather.

This past week I bought a new detergent.  When I pulled the first load from the dryer I was at my grandma's house.  I don't know if it is the detergent she used, but it smells like her laundry, like her kitchen (which is where her washing machine was) when she did laundry.  I smiled and couldn't stop smelling my laundry.  I washed everything that day.  That night when I went to bed, my sheets (freshly washed) took me back to spending the night at her house.  I was a little girl again, wrapped in my grandma's love.  This week I have constantly been smelling my fresh laundry just to be transported back to when she was here, making fried chicken, telling the same story over and over and just to remember her face a little more clearly this week.  I don't think I will change my detergent again.  So, if you see me sniffing my shirt or burying my nose in a load of laundry (which is kinda weird I admit), you know I am thinking of my grandma and thanking God for a very precious gift to me of memories.

Change

It is everywhere around me right now.  My home, my family, my faith, my body.  It is all in preperation for a sweet boy I can't wait to shower with kisses.  Moving furniture, switching rooms, painting, organizing, seeing my kids excited to meet their new brother, hearing them pray for him, seeing my faith grow as I prepare for his arrival and just because I know I need God more than ever right now.  My body is expanding as he grows and moving from his gymnastics.   Normally I warm up to change, need time to embrace it, but I am jumping in with both feet this time.  I have prayed about this little one for four years. Now is the time God has determined to bring about his will.  10 weeks and I will be staring at another miracle he has placed in my arms to nurture.  Someone he has entrusted to me for such a short time.  I am excited, I am nervous, but I am relying on my God to meet my needs and I know it will be wonderful journey.