Worry

I struggle.  I have one constant that no matter how hard I try and can't seem to shake...worry.  A lot of it stems for me liking to be in control, know what is going on.  When I am not, or don't know I worry.  I constantly fight Satan on this one.  I know God is the source of peace, I know to cast my burdens on Him, and when I do, life is easier.  But then worry creeps back in. 

I have worried a lot this pregnancy.  I have in turned prayed a lot in this pregnancy.  I worried I would lose this baby after suffering a miscarriage earlier this year, so I prayed hard for God to make this baby healthy and let it grow and live.  He did.  I have been worried about the weight having a baby brings.  I have prayed about that, and so far that area is going great.  Now, with one week until the BIG ultrasound, the one where a lot think about boy or girl, I worry about this baby being normal, being healthy.  I am worrying, and I am praying. I am praying not just for health but also for peace.  Peace knowing that no matter what, God has knit this baby and has a purpose for this baby. 

So God, you created the little one inside me, you know the plans you have for this baby.  You now the plans you have for me.  Give me faith to know you are the one in control and it is better that way.  Give me grace for doubting.  Please let this baby be healthy, but also give me endurance to face any challenge that might arise.  Wrap your arms around me and let me feel your love.  Thank you for all your blessings, they are too numerous to count.  And thank you for your Spirit that brings me peace. Amen.